One more paper to go and I'm done with this semester subjects. Well, I don't study anything yet... But I'm glad it's my fav subject. Botany. :)

Oh yeah. Agricultural Botany is an interesting subject. In the lab, we have to draw lots of things like leaf, flowers, fruits.... Hm. Fruits. I remembered that we had to draw the strawberries, apples, pears, oranges, etc... etc... After the lab was over... We well,,, We stole those fruits and ate them. They tasted great! Yummy... xD

In the class we learn about plants morphology, anatomy and taxonomy.. Well, those weird scientific name... Hm. Anyway. Did you know that Lady Finger and Hibiscus shared the same family? Or the banana is actually shared the same heritage line along with the gingers? Oh well, maybe you did know. But I don't know until I joined the class. xD

Learning botany makes me realize that every single plants in this world are totally different. In the first glance, we may see that the leaf is all green, the pattern is all the same. Bla3... But if you try to take a second look at them, you will see that there is more than 20 types of leaf apex, leaf bases, leaf margins..etc.. The pattern of the leaf vein is not the same and so on.... Uh. It sounds rather stupid to be crazy over those things. I know.

But honestly, I had to admit that I finally learn to love and appreciate our natures.

Oh well, wish me luck next Friday. xD

Topic:Diary - Genre:Diary

I don't think I really have problems in my life. Ok. Put aside the stupid case, like; my laptop is not in a good condition, I can't online from my room to do research and facebooking, I don't know how to finish my assignments, I don't understand what my Chemistry lecturer is babbling in the class and so on. That's all are just some stupid technical errors and umm... biological errors- my juicy brain does't want to process those thing I learnt in class OR...

I AM a lazy girl- as simple as that.

Maybe the real big deal is my family and money. I am a student and my parents work hard for me. My dad wake up at 3.00 or 4.00 in the morning for works. And my mom raise us. She cooks, do the laundries, send my sis to school and so on. The things that I love is, I have such a loving family. I have three younger sisters and a younger brother. Me and my mom acts like
friend. Sometimes people think that she is my sister. Yep. She looks young and pwetty! When she is married to my dad 20 years ago, she is so slim! Can you imagine, even my sis and I
can't wear her wedding dress! And now, her size is just about me- or is it slimmer than me?

Damn. I envy you, mom.

Back to the deal. I am not the only child in the family. So my dad needs money to pay bills
and support us. Oh. My Grandma live with us to. We live next to a beach- but I hate beach.
That's not weird. Ok. So, yeah. His payment is not that high. I tried to save money that I got
from the scholarship. So it might help in lighten a lil bit of his burden.

And my dad always always always said to me, "You don't have to worry about anything except to STUDY!"

Okay dad. Okay! Maybe I need to log off now and do my assignment.


See? I don't really have any other problems. But still, I can't get it off of my head. I mean, the family and money matters. Sorry dad.

So since I SHOULD study but I don't, why am I here? Well....

Like I said before, I don't think I really have problems; as in realistic problem in my life. BUT, I am burdened by million of problems!

Wait. That's doesn't sound great isn't it?

How to put this... People love to tell me their problems cuz... they think I am a good
listener and good at keeping secrets. Hmm. Is that really an honest compliment for me?

I don't mind listen to others. But sometimes, I want privacy. I want a moment where I don't have to be disturbed. Where certain people don't find me just to tell their problems. I just
can't say NO to people. That's something that lack in my blood!

And to make thing worse, When I feel sad, or happy, or amuse, or whatever emotions that I feel at that particular time, I don't think any of my friends would really really really listen to my rants. I mean, seriously, lots of them love to change the subjects about their life all of
the sudden and I have to listen for hours. Just. Dammit!

Let me put some recent example. I have a friend who has a boyfriend who is also a friend of
mine and they have some problem in their relationship. For me, it's NORMAL for a couple to
fight and become jealous to their partner sometimes. But she took that matter too seriously
and didn't want to take any advices, be it from me or others. She interrupted me almost every
day and every night for almost two weeks- since she is my roomate. Each time I come back from classes and changed my cloth, she will sit in my bed or she will call me from her bed and tell me the latest progress about her BF and she. When we ate together, at first, we will talk
about whatever we wanted to and suddenly, she talked about her BF. I mean, come on. She even interrupted me at 4 in the morning! She could't sleep, she didn't want to eat, she didn't have mood to study all because the problems.

This interrupting and burdening thing is not applying to relationship problems only. No matter what problems that they have, they tend to treat me like this.

And to make thing worse, When I feel sad, or happy, or amuse, or whatever emotions that I
feel at that particular time, I don't think any of my friends would really really really listen to my rants. I mean, seriously, lots of them love to change the subjects about their life all of the sudden and I have to listen for hours. Just. Dammit!

Oh. And I am good at keeping secret because I didn't even tell the real world about my secrets, my hobby, my guilty pleasure AND my problems. So where is my right to tell others about their secrets?

I told my stupid rants and story on the internet because nobody knows who I am in the real life and I doubt any of my friends read this. I just need to tell somebody... Or something as I am no good at vocalize my thought.

And I miss home.


Until next rants,

LittleRu.

Topic:Almost everyday life - Genre:Diary

"If we don't want to be left behind, we need to follow the lead. So when people run, we need to run."

I used to hate that fact. I really do.

The fact that I need to follow what others do to keep on track.
The fact that other people telling you how to live your life.

When I was in school, people said I need to get straight A's, struggle, study, if you are smart enough, then everyone will accept you. People will pay you to be in their university. People pay you to be in their league. You'll have a comfortable life. Get a great job. High salary. Honda. Mercedes. Ferrari. A big bungalow. Name it. Life would be easy.

So I grew up accepting that. Knowing that if I get a perfect CGPA, perfect long list of activities in my resume, anyone will want to take me to work with them. High salary, a great car, a big bungalow on the top of a hill, with a big swimming pool.

Suddenly in my slow paced realization, I asked myself. What if my dream car is just a normal car. My dream house is just an apartment. What if I want a simple life. What if this.. What if that.. But knowing I desperately WANT to travel all around the world. I want to keep on studying and learning. Everything need a good deal of money. Eventually I still need to work my life out to get into that state. And before I realized, I've already used all my life to achieve that. And it will be too late. Too old. Too tired. I forgot what I want. Or life will be for anyone else, and I need to sacrifice for them. Anything. There will be excuses.

I think, entering a university shouldn't be too expensive. It's not a business. Knowledge sharing is supposed to be free, or at least, fair.

One thing for sure, another half of my life will be used to pay back my education. Yeah, they do call it scholarship, but oh well...

lol. After MONTHS, I mean seriously, more than half a year, I think, the fourth book of the Twilight Saga sitting loyally on my bookshelf, I finally started to read it two days ago and just finished it.

Reasons why I didn't read it sooner:
- People said that it is the most boring book ever.
- People tend to pretend that the fourth book is not even exist.
- People don't like this. People hate that. Etc....
- For me, I personally didn't really like Jacob and the book has his POV in it. xD

AND after reading it comes the....

Reasons why I (maybe) should not wait until now to finish it:
- Hey, Jacob is not that bad. I swear I enjoyed Book 2 - Jacob very much. lol.
- Even though it is a lil bit (maybe seriously) childish, I don't really mind with it.
- This may be my second fav book in the Twilight Saga after Twilight itself.

And for me, the worst part of Breaking Dawn is Book 3 - Bella. Yeah. I mean.... Just, WTF...?

If anyone asked me which is better;

i - Bella became a zombie in New Moon
OR
ii - Bella is a gifted wife a.k.a mom a.k.a vampire in Breaking Dawn

I HONESTLY can't choose it.

Oh. And Happy Birthday to my sis :)